New life

Im single now. Don't ask :-)

epy wedding

today is mbak epy wedding
setelah teriak2 di acara rekat paroki santo yusuf, aku datang ke pesta nikahan epy, yg kebetulan di adakan di rumahnya..., undanganya jam 930, datangku jam 2 siang, sampe terop pun sudah dilepas.. hahahah
namun nggak nyesel ah.. soalnya dapet banyak wejangan..
kayak pas ngomongin masalah mama, dia bilang kalau nggak pas buat aku mengeluhkan ttg behaviour mama, karena aku tau alasan mama menjadi seperti sekarang ini, because she is the only child and single parents, that is why she is so dominan.
and the second is.. beda nya cowok yg diajak ngomong males mikir, sama bener2 nggak ngerti. if he really dont understand he will find out how to understand, but if he lazy, he just don't care.. thats it..
hahaha... makin bersyukur punya pacara kayak Dion Kriswandi.. because he always trying to understand me..

Gbless

when I get stressed....

i got to Toko Pelangi..... ahayyy

the baby born

happy born day barotelli and biemini, son and daughter of Jaide and abul.. <3 p="">please be healty and grow slowly :)

happy born day notty

Finally...!!!!!
after waiting for so long... Im introduce you...
NOTTY!!!

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eventhough she is not the newest technology, but when the first time i saw her, i want her soo much
and now I got it for my Chinese new year present, since I need to bed rest for the rest of the day

the condition was really smooth and look like new..
ooppss.. i haven't told you, she wasn't new... I got second hand from a person i knew in the internet.
which after a while, he told us that he is a doctor. LOLx..
honestly, doesn;t look like one..haha
but he look smart, and gadget maniac

anyway, I got it for 4,350,000 rupiah, the new one was 5,2 that day...
still have guarantee untill september. and condition real good.

so, quick we go to WTC to make over notty,
there is one interesting story...
So, i want to give notty a simple case, the slim case, because the other side of case is the back cover of the notty's battery, so actually we need to take out the original and place it with the case, so notty will look slimer and simple
not expensive, just 125,000 rupiah
I found my colour..orange! but guess... we cannot find any replica case which can fit nicely with notty.
its a cliche.. we need to buy the original to fix with notty
so after changing linke 18 times, finally we left the shop and move to other shop
there was one original case.. orange.. fit nicely..but 250,000 rupiah
TWO TIMES PRICE... LOLx..
but titi said to me, indrectly not to give up and find other shop.

so we came to one samsung shop, and we found orange case with 200,000 rpiah...
titi wasn't give up.. he talk and bargain very smooth with the owner... it drops till 180,000!
YES!
i got case for notty, with a good price... very clever boy

special thanks for titi fandy, helping me to get this little friend.. and with passion,

bed rest

hello loocco mocco tocco
this is the sixth day i was sick, they said it was dengue.
wow it was so long since i had it last time, quite dramatized i remember...broken hearth? ehemmm

the doctor was pretty good and handsome too, so i don't mind when he ask me to put needle on my back..first time. however he still 27 and single  hahahah
anyway my trobosit dramaically decrease...the standart is 150-440 and mine was
90   83   69
whenever i walking more than 20 sencond i feel like i want to faint, my head pain
all the yummy food tasted yakkie, and the yakkie food taste yummy

anyway, i though bed rest at home is a good idea because mom doesnt have to pay more for hospital, but i forgot that i need someone to taking care of me, which littarelaly.. NONE!
even my mom doesnt care about me!
and when i cried! heyyy she changes... only one day :(
tha day after she forget about me, tada

im trying to get my self better and better everyday, but sorry to say i think is even worst
now my hand starting to appear red dot, in the legs area as well... eventhough my appetite has started to raise, that is why im going to eat alot alot alot

Yesterday I was surprised with 2 univited guest from surabaya who came to my home
the said his name is fady? and i was like who is that? just let them in and let them se my condition
and surpriseeeeee...i was DION AND TITI
oh so sweeeettttttt *HUG
best boyfriend ever.. i really thank God that he still giving his time, even i know he is busy, going through far, to look at my condition. really appreciated sayang, you are my spirit :)

anyway.. im going to rest now.. getting bored at home. but i need to get used to it :)
GBU

in my space

when i lay down in my room, im thinking how comfort this place
everything that i need is here, when i want something there always people served, and if there was something wrong, mama ready to taking care of it.
but why i feel uncomfortable, stuck, and pressured?
when all that I need is fulfilled, supposedly everything is good. but i don't think this is good...?
even though the job that has given to me is quite challenging , especially the system need to be upgrade,
but i feel has no sense of belonging here
only mom who asked me to stay, because of her age.. she deserves retirement
if this is the process for me to love this job, when this is going to end?
a year has been passed, and im not yet passed the test, this is getting worst
or maybe its just my feeling, after all past 7 years i've been away from home, now i need to accept the truth..
but till when?
I'm stuck... not growing...
lost my humility, lost my feeling of sincerely
but the vision still strong, I want to have my own business and not tied by the moral duty.
going that way, I'm still not sure as well..
resolution is never enough.. i need revolution.

God, answer me...what do you want me to do in my life?

holiday 16-21 january

DION OFFICIALLY OPEN HIS BUSSINESS

TADAAAA...
i made design for dion's new franchise called PASCO, also known as  PASSION OF CHOCOLATE
it's actually ice blended with many variant flavour, cost about 8.000 rupiah/ cups,
I made a simple design for his MENU and FLYER
quite easy, because the company has the Uniqe selling preposition (USP) through the image.
I was awake till 3AM to finish it, because my beloved boyfriend want ti to be DONE asap. thank to him now I have pimples in my face...
anyway.. im still loving you my dion *HUGGGG*
here we go.. DONE

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FIRST POST IN 2013

Sounds this year gonna be an interesting year..
I'm curiouse what God going to do with my life

Tahun baru pergi ke Tumpang, hampir tahun baruan di jalan karena macettttttt di kepanjen
sampe tumpang jam stgh 12.
HAPPY NEW YEAR.. and then melihat romo suster karmel nari2 *sambil bayangin wirawan * LOL

and then 31 dec-1 jan I spent my day watching korean drama, called I MISS U... 15 episodes! WOOOTTTT, sudah 2 tahun nggak liat drama korea sekrang langsung jussss

tanggal 4, DOWN...
i had a seriouse conversation with mom about my future. I said.. I will not stay in Blitar in 5 years time.
I'm not going to handle Pelangi forever. so will finish my job and moved to other city..
kind of challanger for me aye? hahahah.... that gives me a little spirit
kind of guilty saying that to my mom, but that is the TRUTH, and hopefully I can have a peacefull steps in 2013

i have 3days with no renungan... GOOD... decrease in faith LOL
hopefully I'll be back home

seven days of blessings

kalo ada lagu..I'll be home for christmas.. buat aku, tahun ini lagunya ganti..i've been away for christmas..
aku pergi sejak tanggal 22-28 desember.. been really fun!!
ternyata benar2.. Tuhan menjadikan semua indah tepat pada waktunya,, He never late!
sempet galau kan karena post satu ini
namun semuanya berubah.. at least I can spent Christmas with him and.. some other days between christmas and new year with a great people

I was in malang 22-24 December for Dempo choir reunion... its a great pleasure to meet all my high school friends... beberapa dari mereka nggak berubah, mungkin tambah tua kali ya.. dan kami begitu mengalami kebersamaan luar biasa di rumah Pak Mado, sudah lama nggak ngakak keras, bicara mbleyer, dan ga jaim.... Puji Tuhannya lagi, kita karaoke di Happy Puppy, ruang VVIP.. first time in m life nyanyi di tuangan tingkat segede itu, dibayarin lagi! udah gitu sorenya makan gang jangkrik.. di traktir lagi! Thanks to REno and Adit dech! God Bless pokoknya :)

AND THENNN.. 24-26 desember lanjut ke Surabaya, natalan 2 versi... chatolic and Christian.. pas misa malam Natal dapat komentar bagus nich dari willy nya wilda... " Natalannya di katolik ga kerasa ya.. sama saja".. ya jelas kalo di kristen acaranya diganti.. ya memang pas si MS dramanya baguss banget cuman yah.. ada kelebihan dan kekurangan masing2 lah, dilayani dan melayani. Natal bukan keju, bukan juga salju, apalagi barbeque.. tapi Natal itu di hatiku...ihiyyyy

AND THEENNN,,, tanggal 26-28 December, the gratest day in my life, pergi ke tretes.. sampe aku ikhlas kalo tahun abru di rumah aja, karena puasss pooll... wow wow wow... ke villan tantenya selin, bersama anak CG Harvest..great place, great people, great food and full of bless... banyak kejadian lucu yang membuat aku melihat bagaimana pesonality mereka satu per satu yang bisa aku acungin jempol... penuh kasih dan pengertian, ini yg seharusnya diterapkan dalam gereja katolik.
bangun pagi jam 6, main, masak mie omelete, makan bersama... ngelencer bersama.. Praise and Worship, lalu tidur dengan laron,, itu yg paling menantang karena kita harus mattiin lampu sambil melanjutkan aktifitas karena laronnya buanyak banghet.. apalagi, bisa masuk2 lewat clah kecil.. sangar!
dan hari terakhir aku dipercaya ce ratna untuk memimpin praise, how wonderfull it is, first i thought its a joke, namun aku merasa ini sebuah challage for me... for 1 resolution in 2013, manthep di WL.. maybe this could be a great practice, walau awalnya ragu namun semua bisa teratasi, malah anak2 menggila sendiri. malam terakhir dengan praise and worship paling TOP!
yang jelas, sangat amat senang karena ada dion.. sebelum tidur liat dion.. bangun tidur ada dion.. mainan kartu bunuh2an sama dion, si kia su ini nganenin banggghetttt :) pokoknya aku sangat bersyukur dengan masa2 ini.. fotonya menyusul yah...

tanggal 28-29 desember, nian datang ke blitar, jadi hari2ku masih terisi dengan ngelencerrr ngelencerr... nggak anjlok2 soro lah..meskipun badan masih belum fit..kai pergi ke sendang, ke makam2, jalan2 sama anjing... semua plan checked dech.

tanggal 30 akan dilanjutkan dengan ke surabaya-mantene sugeng dan 31 ke malang- misa di tumpang.

okay, seems God really made me surprises with His plan.. im not nganggur man!
HALLELUYA

something that left from last

God will make a way, when it seems to be no way

AAAHAAAAA!!!
God is really good
now is 17 of december and I have plenty of activities coming soon :)

Tuesday 18 december going to be a good day for our sel group.. there going to choose a new leader! WOOOHOOOO

Probably, Thursday of 20, going to malang till 23, plenty of meet up and stuff... not going to miss it!

24-25 December, I decided to celebrate christmas in Surabaya, 24 December going to SAint Yakobus Church in citraland for a Christmas eve mass, and 25 December going to Mawar Sharon Christmas celebration in Gramedia Expo. its gonaa be great? I think so...

26-28 Going to tretes with some of Connect group people and litteraly i just knew some of them.. but Dion will going with us :)

30, going to Surabaya for another Wedding. ahahhahaha...
31m going to Tumpang for New Year eve mass...

I believe it's going to be really great! Thanks God

suatu misi pencerahan

kali ini aku mendapatkan suatu pelajaran yang membuat aku sangat berbangga sebagai seorang katolik.

hari jumat 8 desember, misa di sendang rejo dari jam 9 sampe jam 12 malem.. di alam terbuka, sawah dan deru air menemani...dimana aku bisa merasakan ke mistis an misa, bisa merinding, berbaur dengan rasa rindu akan saat2 seperti ini, walaupan dalam keadaan yang kurang enak badan

lalu sabtunya, melihat begitu indah gereja Katherdral hati kudus Yesus Surabaya, yang dihias untuk sebuah pesta pernikahan, dengan lagu2 gregorian dan petikan harpa dan goresan biola... dengan orang2 yang berbaju rapi, dan beberapa orang aussie, USA, German, Italia pun datang...terasa sangat sakral dan indah sekali

dan hari minggu, dimana aku boleh berbangga kembali dengan katolik, pada saat menghadiri konser atal di mawar sharon saya jadi menyadari betapa detail dan bermaknanya gereja katolik menilai suatu kejadian,  dimana mengulas pribadi tokohnya satu persatu. seperti pada kelahiran yesus, ada malikat gabriel, elisabeth, tiga raja, para gembala.. semetara di kristen cuman selalu fokus sama Yesus sendiri.. ditmabah lagi peneguhan iman dari wirawan dimana kami duduk bersama sambil membahas ttg gereja katolik yang membentuk tradisi dunia juga, seperti valentine, santa clause and halloween.

senen, aku dikuatkan dengan last minute decision pergi ke kediri, ini merupakan suatu tawaran dari mama.. dan tiba2 Tuhan berbisik padaku bahwa segala macam urusan yang ahrus aku selesaikan hari itu akan Dia handle, asalkan aku mau ikut ke kediri. disana sungguh aku belajar banyak dari tiap2 pribadi. aku belajar tentang pribadi seperti apa yang Tuhan inginkan, hati seperti apa yang Tuhan sedang kerjakan dalam aku, perbuatan seperti apa yang harus aku kerjakan untuk menyenangkanNya, dan yang pasti aku melihat kehidupan biarawan dan biarawati yang beranjak dari keluarga sangat sederhana, dan karena kemurahan Tuhan, biarawan biara wati itu bisa sangat dihormati dan menjadi panutan warga gereja.

ternyata ini memang jalan yang aku pilih, dan nggak akan salah, aku yakin suatu saat aku bisa berbangga karena jadi seorang katolik, yang bukan sekedar katolik tapi mengimani Kristus sepenuhnya sebagai satu satunya Juru Selamat, dan melaksanakan kehendakNya disetiap perbuatanku.

ini hanya suatu prolog buatku menyongsong prosesku tahun 2013
siapkan hati, jiwa, pikiran dan fisik.

kenyataan

SO CONFIRMED!
DION GOING TO HAVE HIS OWN FAMILY TIME...

kind of hard for me, it was my wish last year to spent this year with him,
sadly, he doesn't feel the same
I hope he's going to learn something, even without me

December...time for Reflextion

okay, seems it's already December.. time for reflect back what I have done this year.. let's see what i've got for 2012 resolution 

So my 2012 resolution going to be many things; and most of it connecting to my future in Indonesia. trying to get it in details..

1. driving skills ;I'm not going to go out to work BEFORE I know how to drive a car, till I got lisence! ok that's going to be hard, but I want to be independent
2. trying harder ; I promise to get jobs exclude my mom's bussiness, and I'm not going to complain about anything, just accept the situation, trying to survive, and figure out how to be master on it, include my service in the place that God will put me, get the balance on it. achieve something, moving around for experience, as well as saving more money.
3. maintaining; im going to be seriously maintaining my body  -in detail - I'm going to regulary work out, go to skin care, and do products to maintain my performance. it's gonna be tough as well because I'm not use to it anymore when I'm in australia
4. I'm going to hold on my relationship.. go ALL IN, in the way that If I'm going to help Dion, I'm not going to be like you is your problem, not my problem. but I will going like your problem is my problem, something wrong with you, is something wrong with me as well. trying to build trust and faith on each other, plus support in God's faith. even though I need to be long distance with him *again

let see what I have achieved:

DRIVING SKILLS? CHECKED, i've got lisence as well, drives out city too

WORKING? i think more than my mom's. i have tried working on cross accessories wit brand called " Val's accesories" dedicated to my friend. making an Online shop, "Pelangi Online" which quite good and wedding organizer called "rewang  manten" although not really in progress now, make a branding for brothers grooming called "Cihwa hwa house of doggie" and Kennel called "IDEFIX" and last Im trying to selling supplement called "herbal life"
eventhough it's still scattered around but i think CHECKED!

march 2012

april 2012

april 2012

may 2012

september 2012

november 2012

Soo.. prety good aye?

MAINTAINING BODY?  Hmmm that could be continue till next year, bacause my pimples had gone and now seems back, and i gaining 4kg since in Indonesia...

RELATIONSHIP? CHECKED! That was REALLLY REALLY GOOOD... God strengthen our relationship although is not even easy in the first place, but it was really progress since we have an healthy relationship, and serve God together..

what else I have done out of my check list...hmmnm

- pretty good adapt with condition, blitar or Indonesia.. friend come and go, but still keep in touch. renovate shop, only for wallpaper and light. some of the arrangement. mam's shop is still in progress. like we are thingking to open another shop in suburb and build our shop bigger, as well as renovate the other one, pretty tough job but i will do that
- i have a great room, with wardrobe and air cond :)
- community who support me, from mine is Sel Maria Joseph, and from Dion last time was Harvest , but now not really go to that communtiy because dion has moves

so I think it is time to think about RESOLUTION 2013....

Tuhan menyelamatkan saya hari ini

jam 8 malam aku memutuskan untuk control wallpaper yang lagi dipasang di toko
nah pas di jalan depan kantor polisi blitar, jalannya kan lurus tuh, biasa orang lurus kecepatan lumayan tinnggi

tiba tiba menjelang pertigaan , ada cewek dengan sepeda motor scoopy/vino dari arah depan kiriku menggok kanan tanpa ba bi bu be bo
dan aku kaget..
langsung kutancap rem kaki dan tangan sekuat tenaga, dan tampaknya cuman bisa meloloskan si cewek berhasil belok kanan, tapi tidak dengan aku
aku masih belum berhasil berhenti, sementara di depan ada mobil putih yang mau belok kanan
segera aku rem pake kaki sampe akhirnya sepeda motorku berhenti pas sebelum moncong mobil putih itu
sampil shock aku liat kebelakang, dan si cewek yg berhasil menggok itu ngeliat aku sambil kaget dan tancap gas

the thing was... I'm still alive
the insiden was so quick.. what i know was, mobil itu bisa menabrak aku..
untunge mobilnya behenti.

Thanks God, im save

Melayani

ini adalah poster rekoleksi rekat yang diadakan maria yosef, kami beri tema "menjadi terang ditengah perkembangan jaman"
rekoleksi yang dihadiri oleh kurang lebih 500 remaja katolik, dan di layani oleh Tim dari BPK Surabaya
ini merupakan yang pertama kali bagi kami menyelenggarakan sebuah acara, dan langsung besar karena dananya mencapai 8 juta lho.
and it felt compelete when dion was there with me :) uhuy!
YES, akhirnya kami bisa melayani bersama.

SUPER JESUS couple

hal baru yang aku pelajari dari pelayanan ini adalah, menjadi seorang pendoa.
awalnya kami dari tim Blitar nggak mau mengadakan altar call, namun dari surabaya mengatakan sangat perlu adanya doa pribadi, nggak usah altar call tapi doa di tempat. makannya mereka butuh pendoa.
kami sediakan 2 pendoa since mereka sudah ada 5

nah pas saat doa, pemimpin berkata "siapa yang mau menanggapi panggilan Tuhan untuk menjadi terang, silahkan berlutu di tempat masing2 dan kakak2 akan mendoakan"
tiba tiba, semua anak2 itu berlutut...
entah karena mereka benar2 ingin di doakan atau karena ikut2, yang jelas mereka berlutut dan 7 orang nggak akan cukup untuk mendoakan mereka semua..
hati kecilku mendesak aku untuk lari ke depan dan ikut mendoakan mereka,,..
namun ada sesuatu yang sedikit menghentikanku, seperti..aku kan belum pernah mendoakan, aku kan nggak tau apakah aku layak, aku kan nggak tugas..
namun desakan roh kudus dan gerakan dari teman teman yg lain (yg ada gerekan yg sama utk membantu mendoakn) menjadikan aku berani untuk maju dan berdoa bagi mereka satu per satu

saat mendoakan

ada cerita menarik saat mendoakan.. dari sisi manusiawiku
1. saat aku memegang pundak mereka, karena udara panas.. terasa sekali.. basahhh
2. saat aku bertanya siapa nama nya, karena jawak kami dekat saat mereka menjawab..mak desss... baunya sedapppp. LOLX

yang lebih parah lagi, aku mendoakan anak pertama berama nanang, setelah selesai mendoakan nanag, aku bertanya kepada anak kedua:
aku : namanya siapa?
anak: wawan
aku : (mulai berdoa) Tuhan lihatlah kerinduan nanang..
anak: "wawan..."
aku: oh iya wawan..

Lolxxx.. itu cerita favorit saya.. bagaimana dengan anda? hahah
yang jelas setelah medoakan ada sukacita yg luar biasa karena kita bisa mnedoakan adik2 yang membutuhkan dukungan kita.. yang nggak tau jalan, arah yg benar dan nutuh bimbingan

anak sel MaJo + tim BPK sby

manthap pokoke :)

usaha apa?

Hari hari ini semakin penuh tantangan rupanya.. tantangan untuk mencapai sesuatu dalam hidup
since we have already graduated, and need to start working.

Saya sudah bekerja, am I ? LOLx...
sekilas info,sudah 8 bulan pulang Blitar, ikut kerja di Pelangi, maintaining PelangiShop, yang hasilnya pantas disyukuri..namun masih ada kekosongan di hati ini.. ingin punya usaha sendiri.
honestly speaking, im not a fans of small city, but I don't know why God place me in such a small city like Blitar...untuk berbakti? untuk membalas Budi?
yang jelas meskipun saat ini Im already moved on from "syuding's life" but i don't feel having the feeling of REAL WORKING LIFE.. you know, the feeling of difficulty, burden, responsibility, and many more..

So, let's start with abandoned land and building moms owened.
banyak pemikiran untuk usaha, namun semua orang hanya bilang bisa bisa.. tapi di eksekusinya akan banyak tantangan...
seems oke, tapi prospek ke depan susah..
BLitar ini kota kecil, nggak bisa buat usaha macem... malah nggak jalan. tapi untuk membuat orang orang ini tertampung, kita harus berani mencoba, selangkah lebih maju.
misalnya, rumah barat jadikan guest house, dengan semi nature , dan makanan sederhana, harga miring.. ada cafe kecil untuk pemasukan tiap hari, model gueest house keluarga yang nymana dan aman. tapi takutnya dibuat short time... jehhh... malah tu rumah banyak hantu mesumnya ntar
atau dibuat garment production, focus untuk alat2 rumah tangga kayak gorden, sprei, bantal, kasur, dll... ditata bagus dan mbuat sendiri untuk memanjakan pelanggan.
atau dibuat showroom mobil? dengan services and sperpart..
atau untuk swalayan? pakan ayam? alat2 beternak dan bercocok tanam?
atau convention hall? ruang meeting, gedung serba guna, dll?
goshhh..banyak ide api ga ada yg dieksekusi...this is going to rid my brain off..

yang jelas alon2 asal untuk kemuliaan Tuhan...
apa2 itu harus diomongkan sama Tuhan biar lancar...biar benear2 dalam bimbinganNya...

okeh...cukup sampai disini curhatnya